I sent some texts to my husband this morning as we were not together at the time. I was out and thinking. Very meaningful about what I am feeling so, I am just going to share. This is what I texted him.
I am in love with you. Thinking of you. Worried about how you are gonna handle this next treatment.
Just know that I hurt, knowing the man I love is being brought to his knees by Cancer. I hate that word. I feel like Cancer is equivalent to Satan.
The only difference is, he gets you by forcing the suffering and pain on you. You don’t have to fall into temptation. You don’t have to choose to do wrong or go down a path of wrongdoings. It’s like, if Satan wants you bad enough and he can’t get you.. He knows he can’t tempt you to enter into his eternal hell of torment.
So, he forces it on you and places a seed of torment in your body (that cell that goes haywire).
It is like he says, If I can’t get you for eternity, I want you bad enough to take you into hell, watch you suffer, now burn, see my evil.
But, Satan still loses.
In the end, God will give you a special badge, medal, etc. on your judgment day.
When those of us who fight Satan this hard and never lose our Faith enter those gates of Heaven.
We get a badge of Honor.
Cancer is not the only seed Satan uses to place in people
He gets us with mental illnesses too. Tormenting innocent souls.
And many other modes of suffering, the list is very long.
Trying to corrupt us.
FAITH is the MOST important thing we must never let go of.
That’s it right there. Multiple texts. Those were my thoughts and I don’t usually text him that much, so it was kinda like writing a thought that I feel I want to share on my blog. Just to let you know, there is no editing. Usually, when I write something, as I explained how it is that I write in my last post, I edit very little. This is not edited. It is just what I was thinking and is important to share. Especially, now that I have recognized that this blog is me. My journey. My experience. This was important to me and I am not holding back here on my blog. So weird to me still how I am realizing what I am creating and how important it is to me, because it is a complete piece of work that is recording this stage in my life. Much love to all. Happy to share and I love being able to be in a community of others who are going through this same thing. It helps. Much love to all who read this.