All I want is to be free to be me 

Just how I am without being judged.

I am so tired of caring about what everyone thinks

No one needs to understand me or “get me”

I can never be happy if I live to please others

If I cope with life by writing so be it

Don’t read it or worry about making sense of my uniqueness of expression.

I want to be me
I want to be free
Any person who loves me
Loved me for me

Loved what they saw
Not what others saw
If you love me just please set me free
Let me be free… I can finally be ME…Again.


Honesty matters

the truth will set you free !!! A lie is
living a life that doesn’t even truly
exist. Who wants to live a pretend and
fake life? we are all human. we make
mistakes. tell the truth and be
forgiven or if not forgiven, learn from
your mistake and move on. BE REAL!

I want to share this page from a book titled “JESUS CALLING”

PAGE 208 : SONG OF SONGS 2:13; LUKE 10:42


Come away with me for a while.  The world, with its nonstop demands, can be put on hold.  Most people put Me on hold, rationalizing that someday they will find time to focus on Me.  But the longer people push Me into the background of their lives, the harder it is for them to find Me.

You live among people who glorify busyness; they have made time a tyrant that controls their lives.  Even those who know Me as Savior tend to march to the tempo of the World.  They have bought into the illusions that more is always better: more meetings, more programs, more activity.

I have called you to follow Me on a solitary path, making time alone with Me your highest priority and deepest Joy.  It is a pathway largely unappreciated and often despised.  However, you have chosen the better thing, which will never be taken away from you.  Moreover, as you walk close to Me, I can bless others through you.


What do you do
When what you do is write
But you write to share
But this you can’t share
Why you ask?
Too personnel
Quite embarrassing
Something that everyone would understand
Something everyone would read
Everyone would see it my way
See why it hurts
See why its wrong
See it without flinching
No thinking twice about why
I feel as i do
The problem is clear
The only one who needs to see it
Won’t hear it
Won’t read it
Won’t see it my way
Must be a reason why
It hurts
But, I guess all I can do
Is pretend I don’t feel
If the other person can’t see it
I certainly can’t make them
Nor will I force them to say they understand
Just to satisfy my ears
I guess we pretend
Until they speak up
Because they do see
I never wanted
I never thought
I would live a life
Of pretending something is
That now seems just pretend

Another Post to share a comment and my reply. (you know I love sharing interactions with my supporters)

4 comments on “Job interviews”

    • Things aren’t easy. I was in there for two hours. They basically said they were going to hire me. My husband was home working on his truck and needed me back. I was told they would contact me. I also went to an apply in person assisted living facility and talked to a lady and filled out an application. She said she was taking applications but not interviewing yet. I gave her my letters of recommendation, resume, drivers license to copy, and filled out an application. She seemed happy with my information I brought in. I want to get my foot in the door at an assisted living facility so praying she chooses to call me back. I got another call about a job I applied for as an office administrator, but they said the client was picky and even though I was in school while out of the workforce they wanted someone who has been in the workforce consistently. I will keep applying and God will lead me to the right job. It is hard because my poor husband has needed me here so he can work on the truck. Funding helps. It definitely helps with gas to my interviews and his appointments. Even though we only received 320.00 in our gofund it helps with gas to treatments and interviews. Our food stamps got cut. He wants me to get a good job because he is worried a part time job will cause us to lose Medicaid. I’m trying and we are doing our best. I appreciate your concern. Also, his dad helped with some parts for the truck. Yet, my husband did buy another needed part and tools and two new tires almost $400 for two tires. I’m trying and praying. We pray every night for God to give us what he knows we need even if it is not what we want. God knows what we need before we ask. Many people treat him like a genie in a bottle and then get mad when he does not give us what we want. I recently read a book on how to pray we received from the church we are going to. I learned that it is correct to ask for God’s will to be done and give us what he knows we need for his will to be done even if we don’t understand it. We pray each night for God to give us what he knows we need for his will to be done and to strengthen our family to stay together no matter what life brings our way.


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