Update and Message

Unfortunately, my husband passed away In March of 2014. This blog is dedicated to him and tells how wonderful of a man he was.

This is on my blog.  It says better than any other words what he meant to me and who he was as a person.

FOR MY HUSBAND

– I see you as a blessing – You are my guide – My manual to life

 –   My definitions of all meanings lie within you

  – You Define:

– Value – Honesty – Strength – Dedication – Trust – Integrity

– and all things Good

– Your soul is like a glossery defining the right way to be

 – I pray that I have given to you in return:      

                      – A guide to love – Faith – Forgiveness

– And Grace

~ L.G.

 He taught me some of the most valuable life lessons that have made me who I am. Today, I am still grieving. It is an up and down battle. He was in so much pain. I never knew that it was possible for a person to endure such pain. The most amazing thing to me was his Faith. I saw him day after day hunched over on the floor crying in pain praying to God and asking Jesus to please take the pain away. Even though the pain continued, he refused to give up faith. My husband demonstrated the most amazing example of unwaivering Faith I have ever witnessed. I bathed him, I watched him cry, I slept in the hospital bed with him, chased nurses around while he laid on the hospital floor screaming in pain for his meds. This blog tells how wonderful of a man he was. He instilled a set of values in me that I don’t see in many people today. He talked to me about life and how people should be. He showed me that a relationship can be great. He taught me communication between a man and a woman without fighting.

I need to say one thing to everyone who gets any notification when I post on this blog. I heard that people lose faith when they lose a loved one. I have heard people feel like giving up because they have lost their faith. This is what you need to know.

WE ARE HUMAN AND GOD KNOWS THAT WE ARE HUMAN. WHEN WE LOSE A LOVED ONE IT IS NATURAL TO BECOME DULL AND NUMB. WE MIGHT FEEL WE HAVE LOST FAITH BUT WE HAVE NOT. IT IS A NATURAL HUMAN EMOTION. WHAT I DID WHEN I DIDN’T FEEL LIKE TALKING TO GOD, PRAYING, OPENING A BIBLE, ETC. IS THIS:

I TOLD GOD, “I LOVE YOU AND I KNOW THIS IS A HUMAN EMOTION AND YOU KNOW WE ARE HUMAN. I AM NOT LOSING FAITH, BUT BECOMING NUMB AND DISCONNECTED. I TRUST YOU AND AM ASKING YOU TO HOLD ON TO ME GOD. I AM LETTING GO RIGHT NOW AND YOU KNOW IT’S HUMAN EMOTION AND PART OF GRIEVING. GOD PLEASE DO NOT LET GO OF ME AND HOLD ON TO ME. I KNEW HE HEARD ME AND I TRUSTED HE WAS DOING JUST AS I ASKED. THIS IS MY MESSAGE TO ALL THOSE GRIEVING AND FEELING GUILT LIKE YOU HAVE LOST FAITH. IF YOU REALLY LOST FAITH, YOU WOULD NOT FEEL GUILTY ABOUT IT. YOU AREN’T LOSING FAITH. YOU ARE NUMB AND EXPERIENCING HUMAN EMOTION AND PART OF A GRIEVING PROCESS. GOD KNOWS THAT. ASK HIM NOT TO LET GO OF YOU AND WHEN THE TIME IS RIGHT EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE. YOU WILL HAVE A KIND OF FAITH YOU NEVER KNEW POSSIBLE AND AN EVEN CLOSER RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD.

LOVE TO ALL AND MAY GOD BLESS ALL!

 

The Negative Side of Pride

THE NEGATIVE SIDE OF PRIDE

            I planned to start writing my thoughts with the following sentence.  Pride should be listed as one of the seven deadly sins.  However, to ensure I didn’t make myself look like an idiot, I looked up the seven deadly sins first.  Believable enough, Pride, is in fact, one of the seven deadly sins.  The seven deadly sins are lust, gluttony, greed, sloth, wrath, envy, and pride.  Okay, now to my writing.

Let us first evaluate the meaning of pride.  “Pride is an inwardly directed emotion that carries two meanings.  With a negative connotation, pride refers to an inflated sense of one’s personal status or accomplishments.  With a positive connotation, pride refers to a satisfied sense of attachment towards one’s own or another’s choices and actions, or toward a whole group of people and is a product of praise independent self-reflection, or a fulfilled feeling of belonging.” (wikipedia.org.  definition of pride). Pride is, in my opinion, one of the major problems in most peoples lives.  It is a human trait that will block true happiness and lead to a lifetime of regret.  Pride blocks the way of true happiness and prevents the feeling of wholeness, pureness, and “meaning” in one’s life.  We all desire to feel whole and complete.  However, that can’t be felt unless we give as much as we receive, care for others as we care for ourselves, and forgive others just as we forgive ourselves.  This is something that we fail to realize we need to recognize we have done in our lives to feel whole.  It is very interesting how humans often have the inability to recognize their own faults.  We sometimes (quite often for many people) justify our actions and avoid facing our weaknesses and downfalls. We tend to keep our mistakes and regrets to ourselves due to pride (showing a “skin” on the outside to present to others). What are we truly feeling?  Think about it.  It is shame.  Shame in ourselves and humility that we will feel if we let others see our faults.  We tend to actually overlook our own faults and avoid admitting, even to ourselves that they exist. But guess what people don’t realize?  GOD HONORS HUMILITY.  Ask yourself this question.  What is the difference between a HERO and a SAINT?  This is very important in life to contemplate, analyze, define, and really absorb the answer to this question. A hero tends to be thought of as a person with characteristics of perfection.  A hero  is  all too often viewed as one who can do no wrong (even when they are obviously wrong).  After all, they are a hero.  They are excused from their wrongs.  (Yes, I’m thinking in a tone of my own sarcasm).  Sad, but this is very true. Now the term saint is a Christian term and you will be very interested in its meaning.  A saint is the equivalent to a hero in Christianity, but with a very different definition than that of a hero in terms of Greek mythology (and as we view a “hero”).  In Christianity the main characteristic of a hero is demonstrated by one who is honorable enough to face humility.  However, Christians refer to this as being a saint rather than a hero.  Christianity emphasizes humility “..to illustrate ‘that no virtue can possibly be perfectly acquired or continue without the grace of discretion’ “(Wikipedia).

The interpretation of Proverbs 23:23 is as follows.  Pride ends in humiliation, while humility brings honor.   The pride of a son of man will humiliate him and his humility will increase honor to him

Jas 4:6 “but he gives more grace.  therefore he says: God resists the proud but gives grace to the humble.  No human is perfect.  Only God is perfect and he honors us for having the ability and respect for him to stand tall and admit that we are not greater than another, for we all make mistakes. We are all human.

To get to my main point, my personal opinion and belief is that pride is a major cause of the interference of finding continuous and lasting meaning and happiness in life. I have always put my pride to the side (not always, I am human).  Correction: I have tried to put my pride to the side whilst taking pride in my actions and ability to admit when I have done wrong.  It is very hard to be honest and tell someone that you have done something that is wrong.  Something you knew was wrong and you just can’t explain why you were led in that direction.  My belief is that the truth will set you free.  If I lose someone’s “APPROVAL” of me as a person, so be it.  I can’t live with secrets and lies in my life.  When I do wrong I am sorry.  I learn from my mistake, take the weight of the consequences, and learn not to mess up again.  I AM HUMAN.  SO ARE YOU.  I AM NOT PERFECT.  NEITHER ARE YOU.  IF YOU SAY YOU ARE YOU ARE LYING.  BUT, YOU CAN LIE TO ME ALL YOU WANT TO.  YOU CAN’T LIE TO YOURSELF AND YOU CAN’T LIE TO GOD.  It is all about what you can live with because when you go to your grave you have a lifetime of decisions, actions, good doings, and wrong doings to take to the grave with you.  You must accept that your life was what you made it.  Nobody else made your life a certain way and if they did you chose to let them.  Many people do wrong and then live a lie just because they can’t face humility or put aside their pride to make things right by setting things straight.  It is too hard to bear the shame, so people live a life of regret after regret after regret all because they could not clear the air and move in the direction they really wish to because they can’t say, I did wrong, I made a mistake, lets do what needs to be done to correct or fix it. Let’s get the truth out so we can do what needs to be done to move on and LIVE BY TRUTH.  So many people miss out on meaningful relationships and life experiences because they can’t admit they are wrong and they continue to refuse to apologize or admit their own faults.  For if they admit they have done wrong and some blame is on them, they will lose their pride. What will their family think?  Do they “cover their ass” and lose what means something to them or do they speak the truth and move on with the person they love.  People will regret these decisions when they realize they have lost time with their loved ones and severed relationships with others that could have been very lasting and meaningful relationships whether it be with family, friends, or significant others.  My point is PEOPLE WILL HURT NOT ONLY OTHERS, BUT THEY ACTUALLY HURT THEMSELF, JUST BECAUSE THEY PASS ON ADMITTING THEY ARE WRONG, THEY DESERVE SOME BLAME IN A SITUATION, THEY MADE A MISTAKE OR STRETCHED THE TRUTH OR JUST ALTERED THE FACTS.  Personally, if I can really feel something pulling at me and causing guilt, regret, etc. I would rather clear the air to move on, whether it be with or without the person I need to tell.  Just getting it out is better than living with it and having it interfere with your life.  Now, if it is something you can live with and it isn’t causing continuous problems then I would not say you must reveal every single thing that is in your past. It is when it is causing you to lose a relationship that could be saved by putting your pride aside and admitting your faults.  It is equally important to admit your faults and mistakes if it will stop problems over something that is causing continuous interference in your life and decreasing your quality of life and happiness.  When you leave this Earth, know you made the most of your life.  Don’t leave with regrets.  God honors humility.  We are all human and even though putting your pride aside and admitting you have done wrong or given false information or stating that you could have made a few different choices on how you reacted to things in relationships, it will lead to happiness and fulfillment.

If something is in the past and it is not causing any problems in your life, pulling at your conscious or preventing you from being happy and moving forward, it is okay to let it go and silently ask God for forgiveness and move on without making the same mistakes.  However, if putting your pride aside, will in any way, increase your happiness and quality of life please face the humility.  Get it over with and move on so that the truth will allow you to do what needs to be done to fix the problem, allow forgiveness, and move forward.  Remember these two very important facts.

1. THE NEGATIVE DEFINITION OF PRIDE PLACES PRIDE IN THE LIST OF THE SEVEN DEADLY SINS.

2. GOD HONORS HUMILITY

Proverbs 23:23 Pride ends in humiliation, while humility brings honor.

The pride of a son of man will humiliate him and his humility will increase honor to him

Jas 4:6 “but he gives more grace.  therefore he says: God resists the proud, but gives grace to the humble.

Note to me from a minister

Your struggle with your past sins is an
attempt of satan to discourage you and
led you astray. God has forgiven you and
remembers them ( sins no more ). As
christains we need to stand on God,s
Grace and Mercy. He loves us. Untill we
can grasp the fact that His Grace is
sifficient for us we struggle with the
past. Paul ask God to take this thorn
from him and God replied son My Grace
is sufficient for you. We need to rest
assure that that Grace is ours and we
can abide in it. As for being baptised
again it will help you with your
spirituality and there is nothing wrong
with being baptised more than once. I
have been twice. I pray that this has
helped and I will continue holding you
up in my prayers

Life of Me

Okay,

I have been so silent and not in a poetic writing state.  However, I have been seeking the words of God.  I am trying to help my husband understand the meaning of the words, walk blindly with faith.  So, from here on, for a while atleast, my wordpress blog is going to have a lot of meaning behind faith, grace, forgiveness, repentance, and my big inspiration at the time blind faith.  Hope you will join me in this part of my life expressions.  I post what I feel.  I write what I feel.  This blog, as I said before, is ME.  It is my heart, my feelings, my trials, my struggles, my mind, my journey, as a human being and a child of God.  Much love to all.  God bless everyone and I hope to start a meaningful inspirational prayer chain for every person who is part of my blog regardless of the struggles they are going through.  Let us find our way through faith, Jesus Christ, and truth of the word of God together.

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Stop…Please

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“Stop Hurting Him, Please!!!” – Words by: L.G.

Art Source: pinterest

Saatchi online artist: Lou Ros; Acrylic, 2012, Painting

http://saatchionline.com

to my in laws and response from a reader

I posted this back in May I think. My husband asked me
to take it down
This is a response from a reader. I like to post the ones that means a lot to me, as you have probably noticed…

First I want to say that I love my in-laws.  I thought, and I hope it isn’t just a thought, but the truth.  I believed we had a good relationship before all of this happened.  I wish to just forget about all the in between bad stuff that has happened between us and go back to the good and start fresh from that point.  If they do happen to read this post, I want them to know that I love them and in my heart, I truly do care and I really WANT a good relationship with them.  I want it very much.  That is why I refuse to hold anger or resentment.  We have had our words over this in the past.  I admit there was one situation where I did get angry and said some things to them and I publically apologize for that.  Please, can we start anew.  If you are reading.  I love you and I cared about our relationship.  The fact that it was broken has hurt me and I want back what we had.  Lets agree to disagree, let go of the past.  Remember the good, go back to that and forget the in-between.  I can do it.  I want to do it.

Now, below is a response from one of my followers on one of my posts that I would like to share.  Love her. http://intothelightofthenightkitchen.wordpress.com/.  Octavia02

Hi Laura, I hope you’re doing well today. I was thinking about your blog and in-laws.. I think your husband is so proud of you and how you’ve channeled your hurt, fear, love and confusion into this blog that helps other people. My guess is he wanted to show his parents thinking they could not help but see how special both you and the blog are. One thing I’ve learned is never underestimate the level of irrational anger cancer can inspire.
My mother is out of her mind angry with me constantly. It’s hard on my father as well as me. I have to believe that their treatment of you is much more about their son’s illness than about anything to do with the mother of their grandchildren.
That doesn’t make their behavior hurt any less but hopefully it will help ease your questions of self-doubt should they ever arise. Lots of love to you.
-k.

I Stand For Us My Love

-I wear my hat, oh everywhere

-I care not what they think

-I care for you

-I care for me

-I care for us, you see

-So proud I am

-To wear my hat

-Odd glances, I do get

-But my oh my

-They make me smile

-Cause they don’t see

-The glances that they give to me

-They make me proud

-That I love you so very much

-Instead of caring what they think

-I’m proud to know this one true thing

-As little as it means to me

-The glances I receive

-It just reminds me one more time

-How true my love is for you

-I am proud of who I am

-I stand for you, I stand for me

-I stand for courage, I stand for honor

-I stand for strength in what we are enduring

-It’s you and I

-It is our love

-I stand for us, united here as one.

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Negotiate

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“Please wake up and listen dear Lord, just long enough to hear me out, for I have an angel that has agreed to come to you as I have prayed for this angel whom has agreed to negotiate life, love, family, time….please, oh, please” – words by L.G.

Art Source: Pinterest

From museumsyndicate.com

The Dead Christ Supported by an Angel by Alonso Cano

Repinned 1 day ago via Denise Scola

Repinned from Angels…by Marcia Pashe

Originally pinned by. Ellen Moser

Let’s just do it. Getting Interesting. MindSync.MindSync.Mindsync.

Okay, just out of curiosity, and really, I would like the input and perceptions of others.  I am going to make this post sort of a forum type deal.  The eleven questions that I was “as a rule” supposed to come up with to ask those I nominated for the “Liebster Award” are questions I would like to have answered by any single person that sees one or more of these questions they would like to answer.  So, let’s just go for it.  Make it part of our little community.  If you want to answer any question, whether it be one or all, go for it.  No judgments, just no rudeness allowed.  Be graceful with your words out of respect for me and my blogging community.  I look forward to your comments and answers.  To be fair.  I will answer them as well.  Just give me some time.  You guys go ahead and answer away.  I have some things I need to work on  and then I will post my answers as a separate post.  Much love and respect to all.

  1. What is your definition of Faith?
  2. How do you interpret the phrase, “walk blindly with faith”?
  3. What is your definition of Grace?
  4. Do you believe there is only one person on this Earth that you are destined to be with or do you believe there are many people you could be compatible with, it is just a matter of staying faithful to that one, out of the many, that you find and choose to be with?
  5. Do you feel like you judge others unfairly, while overlooking your own faults?
  6. Do you feel like you are completely honest with yourself or do you have a habit of finding ways to justify your wrongdoings?
  7. Do honest and straightforward people offend you?  Not rudely straightforward and honest?  People like me?  People who as these types of questions?
  8. Do you fear each day that your life might end while you still have may people you need to make amends with and have important conversations with?
  9. Are you still trying to figure out who you are and what you stand for?  Where you stand on important life topics?
  10. Are you afraid of life and adding to the question, are you afraid of death?
  11. Are you more afraid of your own death or the death of a loved one?
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Liebster Award Accepted With Honor

Liebster Award

Liebster Award

I am honored to accept this award from a follower of mine who calls herself pigtailed bandit.  Her blog is one that, of course, you must check out because she thought enough of me and my blog to honor me with this award.  The link to her blog is as follows: http://extremelydreamily.wordpress.com/ http://wp.me/2WZoj With this award some rules must be followed as a requirement for the acceptance of the award.  So, here they are and I would appreciate my followers, so kindly helping me obediently follow the rules. I suppose the fist common appropriate thing that must be done is to accept the award, post the picture of the Liebster Award on the top of the post and say who nominated you for the award and list their blogsite (check: accomplished) Now for the official rules

  1. List 11 random facts about myself
  2. Nominate 11 other bloggers for the Liebster Award and list their blogsites
  3. Notify the bloggers of their award
  4. Ask the award winners 11 questions to answer when they accept their Liebster Award
  5. Answer the questions the blogger that gave the award to me left for me to answer.

I AM STILL WORKING ON THIS SO REALIZE THIS POST IS NOT FINISHED YET.  I HAVE TO GET THE QUESTIONS LEFT FOR ME BY THE ONE WHO SO HONORABLY GAVE ME THIS AWARD AND ANSWER THEM.  I WILL THEN POST THIS.  OBVIOUSLY, THIS POST WILL BE CHANGED QUITE A BIT AS I OBLIGE TO EACH RULE. OKAY, HERE ARE ELEVEN RANDOM FACTS ABOUT MYSELF; ELEVEN RANDOM FACTS ABOUT MYSELF

  1. I tend to leave cabinet doors and drawers open all of the time.  Don’t ask me why, if I knew, I wouldn’t do it.
  2. I wash my hands and drip water all over the floor by the time I get to a towel to dry them (one of my husband’s pet peeves).
  3. I pray more by feeling a constant connection with my heart, mind, and soul sinking with God continuously than I do each night when I lay down to go to sleep
  4. I wear this amazing beautiful hat that is posted on me in a picture on my blog site all of the time driving down the road, going into store, walking around the house, even falling asleep in it.
  5. I wear a blue colon cancer awareness bracelet all of the time on my right wrist that reads….say it (then has the pic of an awareness ribbon) Fight it (then another awareness ribbon) Cure it.
  6. I have eczema.  From a biopsy, I most recently found out exactly what it is called.  Spongiotic psorisoform dermatitis.  A mouth full.  Sorry, if I spelled it wrong.
  7. Every year my arms break out up and down with rashes from decorating the Christmas tree
  8. One time, my husband and I cut a Christmas tree down out of the woods.  We put it in our house and haha, guess what?  It contained a nest of praying mantis’s and thousands hatched all over our apartment.
  9. I can’t sing and if you even asked me too you would immediately start screaming stop and covering your ears.
  10. My computer is broke and I have to use it in safe mode just to do anything on it.
  11. I am still amazed and can’t believe that God blessed me with three beautiful children, two girls and one boy. It makes me feel like God loves me so much to give me such wonderful and the most wonderful gifts a person could ever asked to be blessed with
  12. I am adding one more.  It isn’t a random fact because everyone knows it. But, I LOVE MY HUSBAND AND AM BLESSED TO HAVE THE MOST WONDERFUL MAN IN THE UNIVERSE CHOOSE ME TO LOVE.  OUT OF ALL THE WOMEN ALIVE, HE CHOOSES ME.  THAT MAKES ME HAPPY AND FEEL SPECIAL TOO.

OKAY GUYS, HERE ARE THE QUESTIONS LITTLE MISS PIGTAILED BANDIT ASKED FOR ME AND MY ANSWERS:

  1. Do you believe in “God”? Why or Why not.

Yes, I believe in God.  My mother gets all the credit for teaching me to be a woman of faith.  I am human and sometimes ask why.  Even though I know I am not supposed to.  But, God is forgiving and he is here in my heart.  He knows me inside and out.  He gets me.  He loves me.  I trust him.  I love him.  I believe in him.  Yes, I do indeed and proudly so, believe in God. 2.If there was one thing you could create within the human race what would it be? I would create the human race to have the ability to see through the pride, selfishness, and inability to judge themselves as they judge others. I would create in the human mind a natural state of non-judgmental viewpoints and acceptance.  I would create a human race with the ability to understand and accept the beauty of difference and embracing the word acceptance. 3..What is your favorite smell? I have a perfume called “be amazing” I love that smell.  It reminds me of the smell I smelled when walking into the store American Eagle as a teenager. 4.What is your favorite memory? My favorite memory is a very unique memory.  After my husband proposed to me for marriage.  When I decided to set a wedding date, I bought him a ring and got down on my knee and proposed to him that we set a wedding date.  He cried and we danced.  Amazing memory.  My most favorite memory for sure. 5.Instead of answering these questions, what would you rather be doing? Working on posts I have in mind for my blog, that will probably be long forgotten and lost, since I am an in the moment writer.  But, I actually really am enjoying answering these questions.  Seriously. 6.. Do you eat your french fries with Ketchup or Mayonnaise? Ketchup sometimes.  Mayonnaise, never.  Sometimes, salt alone, with no ketchup. 7. Do you own pets? No, I wish I did, but my mind doesn’t have the energy to go through potty training, chewing up no no’s, etc. right now. 8. If you could change something about my blog to improve it, what would it be? I really liked your pic before you changed it.  I would change it back and that is the only thing I would change.  You are a beautiful and amazing person and blogger.  I love the way you express yourself. 9. How do you feel about fonts? As long as I can read them, it’s fine.  Wish we had more options on wordpress, or maybe I am still learning and just don’t know how to use them and integrate them into my blog. 10. Do you want to answer one more question? Absolutely, for you, especially 11. Is this award important to you? Any award is important to me.  No matter how big or how small.  Just the fact that you chose me and noticed my blog as important enough to honor makes the award mean more to me than any other one I will receive.   Why?  Because it is the first I received and it came from someone as special as you. Someone who commented on one of my posts that was so special to me that I actually reposted that comment on my blog.  Much love to you.  I like you and I think you are amazing and beautiful.  Thank you.  It is an honor. Following the rules of this award is no easy task and I am working on it consistently.  I have already chosen my number one nominee.  Secret though.  Anyway.  I still have to come up with 11 questions after choosing the 11 blogs.  I’m getting there.  Working hard on this today. OKAY, HERE ARE MY ELEVEN NOMINEES IN ORDER. 1. http://knittingraysofhope.wordpress.com/ http://wp.me/2nIXM The wonderful people who created this blog most likely do not have the time to follow these rules.  Therefore, though it might be out of my hands to do so, my heart and God’s had wrapped around my heart at this time give me permission to allow this site to accept this award from me without having to follow any of the rules.  Keep doing what you do.  You are number one to me hands down.  I am blessed to have these hats you made for me and my children.  These will forever and I do mean forever, be cherished and never viewed as anything less than three of the most precious objects we own.  Much love to you.  God Bless You and he has already.  With all of my heart.  Thank you.  I hope you don’t mind, but I want everyone to see just how special you and your blog really are, so I have posted below some words straight from your blog. Jazlyn created this black hat for our new Secret Mission.  We are doing a drive for children Chemo Warriors in a specific theme.  We have been planning this for a while and will probably unveil the secrecy at a later time.  My daughter used black charisma yarn and did a garter stitch for the brim.  The rest of the hat is e-wrapped.  I am very proud that my teenage daughter enjoys making hats and finds it rewarding to give her creations to Chemo Warriors.  In fact, I asked her if she wanted to keep the first hat of our Secret Mission, <yes it’s so cool, that she & my son will want one> and she told me, “Nah.  There’s plenty of time to make hats for us.  Let’s concentrate on the kids who are fighting cancer!”.  Aww, my heart must have burst with pride.  But trying to “be chill” <teenage lingo meaning mom, don’t go messing this moment up>, I just smiled and looked down so she couldn’t see my eyes that started filling with tears (of joy & pride).  That’s my baby! ~Pali Making hats for sick children, babies in the NICU and Chemo Warriors is very, very rewarding.  It’s my way of giving back, doing good work as an act of service or making kindness, my religion, so to speak.  And when we ship off a box of hats to a hospital or oncology center, I know that the hats really make people happy and hopeful.  It shows people that there are folks out in this cruel world that really do care.  And sometimes we get a connection and maybe a photo of a recipient who is wearing our creation.  It’s so special to me, it touches my heart profoundly to make that connection.  With these special requests, it starts with that connection, the personal story.  I get the privilege of getting to know what their challenges are, what they like and then I receive these beautiful photos with amazing smiles.  The pictures are so much better than my imagination.  Thank you for sending us these pictures!  The pictures of these smiling faces wearing my creations is really my motivation.  I am honored to be a small part of their lives. ~Pali 2 .Now, you my dear, must follow the rules.  Saying that with humor and all smiles because you are my top choice aside from the very special blog that I have to give the first choice to. http://michelledicken.wordpress.com/ SHELLAKERS http://wp.me/36AsI I Choose to give the number two (one for rule following) spot to this blog.  She is one of my followers and calls herself SHELLAKERS.  The way she documents her daughters lives and motherhood is beautiful and inspiring. It is like a scrapbook of something very special.  This blog must be kept alive and never shut down.  Please.  It will be something very special to your daughters and your grandchildren throughout the years.  Not only is she amazing and expressive.  He photography is excellent.  The best part of it all is what she means to me.  Through comments on my posts back and forth she has, even if she does not realize it, helped me in a way that will allow her to be blessed.  She said in one comment that I am in the process of being blessed Big time.  Well, I think I am blessed to have her in my life just by following my blog and I think her children are even more blessed to have her as their mother.  She is my number one choice.  So I am giving her the Liebster Award and am honored to do so. 3. http://risinghawkspeaks.wordpress.com/ http://wp.me/3bPp5 This is one of my followers.  He is Rising Hawk and I like his blog because it is one of those blogs that can be interpreted in many different ways.  It is kinda deep in it’s own way.  I have a passion for the way that we all interpret things differently and some of his poems are very inspiring just because I can see in them that “interpretation belongs to the reader”.  Those are special types of poetic writings.  He has also been one of the most inspiring followers I have.  As all of my followers have helped me tremendously.  He, too, is consistent and I feel his heart is deeply feeling for me and my situation.  That, in itself, takes a special kind of person. 4.SLPMARTIN http://slpmartin.wordpress.com/ http://wp.me/LWgN Okay, a bit raw and quite forward, you must be warned before checking out this blog.  However, I am going to quote the words from his blog that led me to choosing him as one of the eleven nominees.

“POETRY TO ME…

Poetry has the power to make us aware of what is hidden in the shadows…those places that we seldom see or want to see…the poet’s voice scrapes away the facade of an issue and lays bare for all to see what has been denied. By providing a voice to these mute realities, poets have throughout history altered the course of events by enlightening readers and encouraging them to take action to stop wars, halt injustice, and to reach out to their fellow man. Like those poets who have proceeded me, I am motivated by the same desire to bring about the social changes necessary to enhance the quality of life for those around me and around the world and to give voice to those who cannot speak for themselves” The Hawk Chronicles is now available onLulu.com. 5.  http://ajaytao2010.wordpress.com/about/ http://wp.me/PQTM9-2 This is a blog of a very brave man who puts his thoughts out there hoping to touch others.  Check it out.  I have posted below, words that come straight from his blog. Hi Everybody, Basically I am an extreme introvert, I will never open up with anybody until I feel deeply intimate with that person. Thus creating lots & lots of advantages & disadvantages for me in my life. Last year “Cancer” was detected in my body and I had to undergo harsh treatment (chemotherapy). I was a high risk patient right from the stage of diagnosis. After completing my chemotherapy,“Cancer” was cleared off my body, but to no avail as new fatal, post chemo infections were detected in my body(after effects of chemo), Now I m on very heavy medications. I know the treatment is “Palliative & not Curative”. So ultimately I have decided to open up myself  & share my “Thoughts & Feelings” with the world. Hope I succeed. I would like here to quote some famous personalities who have undergone cancer treatment:  their expression & their feelings If children have the ability to ignore all odds and percentages, then maybe we can all learn from them. When you think about it, what other choice is there but to hope? We have two options, medically and emotionally: give up, or Fight Like Hell – Lance Armstrong One must not forget that recovery is brought about not by the physician, but by the sick man himself. He heals himself, by his own power, exactly as he walks by means of his own power, or eats, or thinks, breathes or sleeps – Georg Groddeck During chemo, you’re more tired than you’ve ever been. It’s like a cloud passing over the sun, and suddenly you’re out. You don’t know how you’ll answer the door when your groceries are delivered. But you also find that you’re stronger than you’ve ever been. You’re clear. Your mortality is at optimal distance, not up so close that it obscures everything else, but close enough to give you depth perception. Previously, it has taken you weeks, months, or years to discover the meaning of an experience. Now it’s instantaneous – Melissa Bank My Thoughts I have been actively participating with several cancer patients during their treatment in the last decade, some extremely close friends, some known people & some small children. I m witness to the strength & weakness of the patients, the most brave among  them all, I found were the children,  their sustainance was phenomenal apart from their innocence & sponteniety. Earlier I had learnt & understood about tolerance, endurance & wisdom, but I have experienced all these great qualities practically only with the children. I will cherish their memories till my last breath, I m absolutely sure my strength are the children & to some extent myself. Ajaytao 6 .http://lymphnodetransplant.wordpress.com/about-me/ http://wp.me/P3bHJo-13 This blog is special because it is someone sharing their journey with Lymphoedema.  Cancer is a scary thing and we all need people to relate to what we are feeling.  I posted the section about me: below.  Please visit and check out this blog.

ABOUT ME

On 14th March 2013 I will be having a Lymph Node Transplant.I have had Lymphoedema in my left leg since surgery 11 years ago for Cancer. At the time, 22 lymph nodes were removed from the groin area followed by pelvic radiation for a month. During the past 11 years I have had compression bandaging, laser, manual drainage and have worn compression stockings or tights. It is a daily battle to keep the lynphoedema under control. I have found water aerobics a great help as the water gives natural compression. However due to this I have had numerous episodes of cellulitis, so it is “catch 22″. What helps the swelling does not help the danger of infection. Last year I started to hear about Lymph Node transplants being done overseas. I started to research this and by some miracle a new clinic had opened in Sydney at the Macquarie Uni Hospital – the Advance Lymphoedema Clinic. I had to attend for assessment as to whether I was a suitable candidate. Surgeons at Macquarie Uni Hospital are performing Lymph Node transplants and Liposuction on those not suitable for the transplant. I had a Lymphoscintogram performed to check the activity of other lymph nodes in my leg, as well as its condition to ensure it was not fibrous or very swollen and that I was in general good health. I will also need an MRI prior to surgery. Lymph nodes are to be taken from my neck and placed behind the knee. I have decided to write this blog to bring awareness to a little understood health problem that causes both men and women great anguish. There is both primary and secondary Lymphoedema. In documenting this procedure I will be keeping a record of my progress and outcomes. Please follow my journey and share with others to educate people on what it means to live with Lymphoedema. 7. http://intothelightofthenightkitchen.wordpress.com/ http://wp.me/2qNqb This is also one of my followers that leaves me many inspiring comments that help me through some of my down days. She calls herself Octavia02. I like her blog.  I like her writing.  Check it out. Again, below I have posted her words from her blog on her about section below: The Night Kitchen is where we gather when the world is asleep. It’s warm with pink stones smooth to touch under our feet while yellow light glowing through the windows iIlluminates our love, our connection. As for me – I like to write and maybe someone out there will like to read. Read me that is. Like to read me. And the things I write. I’ll meet you in this kitchen where there’s always room for more. 8. http://noonoopono.com/about/ http://wp.me/P3ok9O-1 This is at the top of her blog and I believe all of us dealing with cancer need supporters, so check it out.  Give some more support.  Spread the love.  We all need it.  All of us… LIVING WITH CANCER… 9. http://thedeadelephantintheroom.wordpress.com/ http://wp.me/1OaK3 This is as stated on the blog “a journey about death” I apologize as some of my nominees are blog where people are expressing serious life events and need supporters.  That is what I am here for and that is why I feel no shame in nominating those who are brave enough to put it all out there.  What they feel.  What they need others to step into and be brave enough to share journeys with them. 10. http://renardmoreau.wordpress.com/ http://wp.me/2ozHc Renard Moreau Presents Cool miscellaneous thoughts They are interesting….check it out. 11 .http://bbchanel2288.wordpress.com/about/ http://wp.me/P2lklv-2 I am nominating this blog because she is just one of us many bloggers speaking out about what means the most to her and issues that often go unrecognized.  Trying to reach out to others and hoping to make the world a better place. I posted her about section below: My name is Monique Brittingham-Fleming and I reside in Philadelphia, Pa.. I am a full time student majoring in Sociology and also a full time worker. I am married to my best friend and have zero children. I decided to start this blog due to the lack of easily accessible information on the topic of Fibromyalgia. I was diagnosis with the disorder almost a year ago after two years of suffering in pain with no answers. Thankful unlike most with the condition, I found a great doctor who fully understood the condition and was able to provide me with great information. That is another reason why I started this blog. Unfortunately many with the condition will go undignosised due to the medical community’ s disagreement on the condition, in which you have those who truly believe that the condition is real, while others believe that it is all in the mind of the patient. Sadly this attitude has led to many suffers becoming depressed and secluded from the outside world 12. I am sorry.  I have to nominate one more. http://thetopicofcancer.wordpress.com/ MY ELEVEN QUESTIONS FOR THE NOMINEES TO ANSWER

  1. What is your definition of Faith?
  2. How do you interpret the phrase, “walk blindly with faith”?
  3. What is your definition of Grace?
  4. Do you believe there is only one person on this Earth that you are destined to be with or do you believe there are many people you could be compatible with, it is just a matter of staying faithful to that one, out of the many, that you find and choose to be with?
  5. Do you feel like you judge others unfairly, while overlooking your own faults?
  6. Do you feel like you are completely honest with yourself or do you have a habit of finding ways to justify your wrongdoings?
  7. Do honest and straightforward people offend you?  Not rudely straightforward and honest?  People like me?  People who as these types of questions?
  8. Do you fear each day that your life might end while you still have may people you need to make amends with and have important conversations with?
  9. Are you still trying to figure out who you are and what you stand for?  Where you stand on important life topics?
  10. Are you afraid of life and adding to the question, are you afraid of death?
  11. Are you more afraid of your own death or the death of a loved one?