I am not sure why I have become so scared of judgment based on my own writing. I can’t keep that up and I won’t. Writing helps me get through hard times in life. I know uplifting things that are written are so much better than negative things. But, my life is full of emotion right now. Sometimes I feel things that are positive, hopeful, and uplifting and other times I just feel like falling apart. But, “I AM HUMAN”… Yes, I am. I am allowed to feel hopeful and I am also aloud to feel scared and hurt. So, I’m not trying to please anyone. This isn’t a contest, competition, or any such. This is my place to write when I feel down, depressed, fearful, happy, hopeful, cheerful, or whatever. I have the right to deal with my husband’s cancer with good days and bad days just as I am sure anyone dealing with this does. Coping with this serious of an illness is NOT EASY and I am still hopeful and still praying for a miracle. But, honestly, some days it is really hard to face and that is OKAY. IT IS OKAY. “I AM HUMAN”. If this helps me, I don’t care what others think of my feelings because I AM ALOUD TO GET THROUGH THIS MY WAY, which isn’t so unordinary. A roller coaster of emotions is to be expected when facing cancer with your husband and young children. My husband has cancer and I am coping and dealing with it healthily. Some days are good and some days are bad. But it is a journey that can only be taken ONE DAY AT A TIME. AND I AM STILL PRAYING FOR A MIRACLE EVERY SECOND OF THIS DIFFICULT JOURNEY.
-I WANT TO SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH YOU
-THE DAY WE WED, A DAY SO SWEET
-I TOLD YOU THEN, I TELL YOU NOW
-BUT NOW AND THEN HAVE TURNED FROM DAY TO NIGHT
-I WANT TO SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH YOU
-ONCE UPON A TIME I KNEW I REALLY WOULD
-WELL, NOW MY DEAR
-SAD AS IT SEEMS
-THE FAIRYTALE OF A LIFETIME OF LOVE HAS FADED
-YOU MY DEAR, I ASSURE YOU THIS
-YOU WILL SPEND THE REST OF YOUR SWEET LIFE WITH ME
-IF ONLY THE REST OF YOUR LIFE WAS FARTHER THAN EITHER OF US COULD SEE
-THEN, I TOO WOULD BE BLESSED WITH THE PLEASURE
-TO SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH YOU
-EITHER WAY OUR VOWS STAY TRUE
-THROUGH SICKNESS AND HEALTH
-TILL DEATH DO US PART
I lost hope and faith assuming the worst
I pray and put my faith in Christ
For health, healing and miracles
By Laura G
Friday, 26 April 2013
ST. LOUIS – Interventional radiologists at Saint Louis University Hospital have a new alternative for liver cancer patients with Yttrium-90 (Y90) radioembolization, infusion of radiation impregnated beads therapy directly targeting cancer cells without an external beam.
In the procedure, radiologists infuse a high dose of tiny microscopic beads called radioisotope Yttrium-90 into the liver tumor through a catheter in the groin. The beads are trapped inside the tumor bed and directly destroy and kill cancer cells.
“We are able to go right into the tumor bed with no collateral damage to healthy tissue,” says Rotimi Johnson, MD, interventional radiologist at Saint Louis University Hospital and a SLUCare physician. “The particles target only the tumor.”
The beads decay inside the tumor over a period of two weeks.
Traditional radiation therapy is most commonly delivered by external beam radiation. Patients lie down as machines target the cancerous tumor. However, as the radiation is delivered from outside, it comes into contact with healthy tissue in the body.
“It’s a significant difference from radiating from the skin surface,” says Dr. Johnson. “This is all internal.”
While the concept to deliver internal radiation through brachytherapy is not new, Y90 radioembolization is relatively new to the medical landscape. The outpatient procedure is for a growing population of patients with advanced stage liver cancer.
“This is for patients with metastatic or primary liver tumors,” says Dr. Johnson. “It’s been well tolerated by our patients and they’ve been doing really well.”
About Saint Louis University Hospital
Saint Louis University Hospital is a 356-licensed bed quaternary/tertiary referral center located in the heart of the city of St. Louis. Approximately 75 percent of patients are drawn from a 150-mile radius. Through affiliation as the teaching hospital for Saint Louis University, the hospital provides patients and their families with an environment of medical innovation. Working in this endeavor are the hospital’s medical staff partners, SLUCare, the physicians of Saint Louis University. The hospital admits more than 17,000 patients annually, performs more than 200 organ transplants a year and is a Level I Trauma Center that treats more than 2,000 major trauma cases a year. For more information, please visit http://www.sluhospital.com.
-Something rarer than rare itself
– When someone cares
-I mean really cares
-Metephorically…….How do I say?
-Walking Blindly with faith…
-Compares, I’d say (metaphorically)
-To a heart that cares abstractly
-No strings attached
-No personal connection needed
-One who does the best of deeds
-Reaches out a hand to hold
-Without ever seeing eye to eye
-Or even hearing the sound of voice
-Caring so Truly only God could make a soul this beautiful
-These words I bring
-And place down now
-Are meant for you
-“The one’s who made my hat”
– Hope Rays
-Knitting Rays of hope
-By Laura G